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Tuesday, November 14, 2017

#TipsNanadh

So let's talk about moving on shall we?

Idk what move on actually is. But there are a few things that you can do (what I do and it works) to stop crying after that guy/girl.

1. I am a Muslim. So I recited Yasin, praying so that Allah removes that feeling towards him. Doing so makes me feel calm.

2. I accept the fact that our path didn't cross each other anymore. Maybe his presence just to give some experience, some life lessons. Maybe he weren't meant to stay in life forever.

3. I have flaws. Maybe I'm not the perfect one, not what he wants. So yeah gotta let him go though. He deserves someone better than me.

4. I still have a longggg wayyyyy to go. I believe that I'll discover new person, making some new memories with that new person. And just like him, that new person maybe would leave me too. It's a part of growing up I guess. But don't worry there's always a hope. I'll meet the right guy eventually.

5. I love him because I thought he love(d) me. Turns out it is all just a lie. So yeah there's no reason to love him anymore.

6. Whenever I started to feel sad, I'll recite al Fatihah and ayatul Qursi. Those sad feelings are just bisikan syaitonirojim.

7. That guy is a whole new one. He's no longer the one that I used to know. So to me, he's just a stranger. I treat him like a friend now.

Nevertheless, NEVER EVER FIND ANOTHER GUY/GIRL JUST TO FORGET YOUR EX. Don't break others heart just because yours had been broken. Don't use other people just to wash away your sadness, your loneliness. Do your own recovery. Make yourself happy. Goodluck !!


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Midnight Thought: Picket White Fence

When you do something sincerely, every single day, it will become your nature. And you just can't stop doing it even when things change. Cause it has been a part of your life, a part of yourself precisely. Not doing it makes your life incomplete.

I'm still wondering about him. What did he do, where were him. And no, this is ain't love. It is a habit. Checking on him is my hobby. I don't feel the same anymore. But still I wanna know how he's doing. Cause I can't find the reason of not doing it. It is sincerity that leads me to do those things, not love.


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Monday, October 30, 2017

Late night thought

I found it hard to search for someone who can love you truly, sincerely. Someone who can accept you as you are, your flaws. Someone who thinks you are lovable even when they had saw you during your worst time. Someone who still wanna be with you even you are at your lowest point.

And I'm still figuring out if there is someone who can accept me as I am. Accept all my flaws. Idk. Sometimes my flaws can be a big deal to everyone. I'm clumsy, I'm forgetful, I'm childish, I'm immature. They can't accept that. They can't even accept my physical. Yeah sape je nak perempuan pendek ni. Dah la tak berapa cerah. Muka macam macam budak. Leulssssss.........

And if you can find one, please do your best to keep him/her. You might not find another. Do your full effort to make them happy, cherish them, appreciate them. AND DON'T EVER LET THEM GO.

Goodnight <3 p="">

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Sunday, October 29, 2017

Am so fucked up

Fighting with emotion is damn tiring. It's like you are on a battle but your opponent is something that can't be seen. Abstract. I lose appetite and consequently lose weight just because of I can't control my emotion. I shouldn't let my emotion be in my way. It makes me lose myself. I'm so stressed out, so fucked up. I can't even focus during classes. I don't talk too much. I can't enjoy my day. I keep counting sheep at nights too. There's too many things in my mind, I overthink. And I keep crying every single night. I feel like there's no one cares of me, nobody loves me. I push everyone away. I keep my distance from everyone. I feel useless. I'm so down. So blue. I get mood swing. I get over-sensitive. I easily get annoyed with almost everything. I need help =(



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Saturday, October 21, 2017

Insecurities

One side of me feels good with myself, in love with myself, way too confidence with myself, not feeling insecure at all. Yup I'm pretty and cute in my own way. I don't even mind to go out with bare face.

Another side of me feels like I'm the ugliest person ever exist on earth. Sometimes I wonder why did I exist to be ugly. Why can't I be effortlessly beautiful like the others. Life would be much easier that way.

And,
How I wish to have a full table of makeup sets. So that I can be more beautiful. Leulss. Walaweyh insecure sampai rasa nak beli makeup weyh. Padahal selama ni rajin beli lipstick je sebab bibir pucat. Hahah

me wearing shawl with heavy make up

me wearing tudung bawal with heavy make up

me with light make up

my naked face 😂😂


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